that was me writing

First, this is a bit personal. Frust. There’s nothing I can do. Just let it go. I don’t have any feeling for him anymore, but to hear that he’s just married, then it hit me hard. Every part of my body is weak.

Last night, there was a miscalled on my phone. I didn’t remember about the unknown number, until I checked my call register this afternoon. Seeing the unfamiliar number, I dialed the number out of curiosity, who knows it’s friend, long lost one’s number. So, there, until the last 4  numbers, I could have guessed that it was him. It was his number, although the first three numbers’s changed. Him. As stated here. That’s his number. I should stop, but yes, I continued and waited until he picked up the phone. 

I knew he just married. I even congatulated him, via friendster, though. But to talk to him. Argh, painful. He’s still sweet, as usual.

A fact that hit me very well, is that he doesn’t even get married to the girlfriend! (whom I left him to her-sort of) He’s married to another girl. We parted the good ways, so now, we obviously can laugh at our good old days. I told him, “if I ever knew” (in my heart I continued.. “that you two didn’t make it”)..He laughed. I laughed.

What to do. We planned.

I believe there’s someone out there for me, hopefully better. I am positive. Heheh.

p.s : “jangan dikenang barang yang sudah”

Hari itu jumpa chech di rasa, alamanda. Chech tengah berangan nak pilih makanan apa nak dimakan. Saya lambai2 then dia pun datang ke meja saya dan nolee.

Chech : Aku duk tengok. Echah ke Lola. Echah ke Lola. (Lola is my lookalike (they said la) from the same batch)
Me : Echah la chech!
Nolee : Makan apa?
Chech : Mengidam ni. Kue teow echah pastu mee kari echah.
Me : Hmmmm… (dalam hati : bangga) hahaha

I knew she’s kidding but it made my day. Haha.