that was me writing

Sekarang ni dah pukul 7.00 pm. Saya masih lagi di pejabat, menyiapkan berkilo2 kerja. Hehe. Semalam baru lepas APC, dan kalau dulu saya datang sebagai tetamu [datang makan saja] tapi tahun ni saya menjadi AJK. Agak meletihkan tapi saya suka. Saya suka buat apa yang saya suka. Selepas majlis berakhir, [saya berdiri hampir 2 jam tunggu VVIP dan VIP dan memakai kasut tumit tinggi 3 inci tauuu..] saya dan rakan2 melepaskan tension di Mines selepas office hour. Oh ye, semalam ada orang kata I look good. Haha. Motivasi tu!

Okay, minggu depan ada majlis lagi.Dan saya jadi AJK lagi.

Sekarang saya nak menyiapkan memo, dan surat jemputan kepada semua hadirin dan hadirat. Biasalah, bila berada di Bahagian Pengurusan, semua benda yang silap nanti akan ditala kepada kami dulu. So, we have to do our best, okay!

Chaiyok!

p.s : Have a nice day frens. Lots of love. Muah!!

When you asked me,
“where would you like to have drink?”
I’d say, that cafe by the lake
Then you told me
“I was about to suggest that place too..”

When you asked me
“What were you thinking?”
I gave you that look
Then you told me that I was not there
It seemed to you that I’ve been drifting away
I told you that I was looking at that child
Looking for her mom
Walking down the stairs

Actually I lied to you
I wasn’t even thinking about that child
It was you on my mind

I was thinking about you
About you and me
About us…

But, I just didn’t know
Why when you are in front of me
The things that I’ve been trying to say
Just fade away and gone…

I need miracle.

p.s : Those who understand, will understand.

Semalam saya gerak dari rumah di Bukit Sireh dalam pukul sepuluh lebih. Adik saya Faiz, yang drive dulu. Kemudian, dari Kechau sampai Shah Alam, saya nak hantar adik yang seorang lagi, Firdaus, saya drive. Penat jugak lah. Saya sampai Shah Alam dalam pukul 5 petang. Kira macam laju jugak lah. Lebih kurang 6 jam je, termasuk berhenti isi minyak, lunch dsb.

Selepas maghrib pulak saya pergi Melaka hantar si Faiz. Masa pergi, Faiz yang drive [tak sia-sia saya sponsor driving licence dia dulu-hehe]. Balik saya lah yang drive, ditemani Fish dan Oren, thanks girls. Long time since I last spent time with the two of you.

Hari ni, saya punya assistant dua-dua pun cuti. Seorang balik kampung, seorang lagi e.l, ada accident katanya. Tetiba lak kecoh sebab banyak hal belum settle lagi untuk meeting Khamis ni. Segala kerja yang saya pesan kan sebelum saya cuti Jumaat lepas, [balik kampung] separa je yang bergerak. So, saya terpaksa lah setelkan semua. Uhum.

Saya balik kampung, sebab atuk saya sakit. Dia kena stroke. Poor him. He was so healthy the last time I saw him, last two weeks.  Sekarang, dia hanya baring dan kadang-kadang boleh bersandar kalau ada bantuan dan sokongan. Sangat sedih. I think this is the first time I saw him so weak. All this 26 years.

Bila saya pergi dekat dia, pegang tangan dia, then dia pegang balik and just looked at me. When I talked to him, he just looked at me. He couldn’t answer back, even if he did, we didn’t understand. I was close to cry everytime I saw him.

I saw my mum and my uncle cried. My mum is a tough woman, I adore her. But she couldn’t help the tears anymore, it was her father in law anyway. But she took a very good care of him. Hoo I love my mum very much.

Apart from all the sad moment, it was good to see the faces of the family members that I haven’t see for ages. [Or at least since raya.]

p.s : I am sort of mad at my two assistants anyways.

p.s.s : Good luck to me in organizing the first meeting in MOT.

I have to admit that I don’t like medical check up very much. [is there anyone who happen to like it, anyway?] But I have to go through it anyway, many-many time. Since I was about to register at a Majusco in 1995. I’ve been to medical check up for about 5 times.

I was afraid. Who knows I might be diagnosis with the most dangerous illness. The most serious penyakit ever. Haha. Paranoid.

My friend asked me once why I didn’t go to a medical check up during our matriculation year. [2000]

She : Shah, kenapa mu malas nak cek?
Me : Aku takut la.
She : Takut gapo?
Me : Mana tahu kut kut aku ada penyakit gapo2…malas nak tahu…
She : Gilo. Gi lah cek…
Me : Tak sey [tak nak]
She : Nanti kalau ada penyakit gapo2 buleh la berubat…
Me : Tak nak lah.
She : Bengong.
Me : Kalau aku ada penyakit biar je lah…
She : Mu ni gila lah.

Anyway, how long can I escape a medical check up pun kan. To get into university, I have to undergo a medical check up anyway. To get into the service I have to undergo it again. Huh. Alhamdulillah I am healthy.

p.s : NH’s post influenced me to write this.

p.s.s : My grandad was admitted in hospital yesterday. He had stroke. Let’s pray for his health, will you. Thanks.

*Majusco = Mara Junior Science College.

Today is my baby brother’s birthday.

He’s the youngest in our family. So we call him baby. He is a boy though so we are worry if we are going to call him baby forever. Even the younger cousins call him Abang Bi. Hehe. His real name is Fariz Naim though. Sometimes friends at school call him Baby as well. Hehe. Luckily he s got no problem with that. Not yet I think. Wait until he is older. Now, today he is 8 years old.

I remembered when I was in matriculation at Penang, that one day my father smsed to tell me that I have got a new brother. That was in July. Having spent most of my teenage year at hostel, I was freaked out (no kidding, I was shocked) when I went home for holiday and saw my mum’s tummy. Oh, another brother or sister. I went on sighing. Poor my mum at that time, but now, I am so blessed to have so many brothers and sisters in family. Hehe. Hopefully they will all turn into good people yang tak akan menyusahkan ma and pa and me also. Hehe.

baby...harap2 hensem la bila besar nanti

So, dear Baby [though he is not reading this], Happy Birthday. And Along loves you…

playing with the brothers. bi, faiz and ie.

picture from mycrunkspace.com

No, I am not changing my phone number, not yet. It’s my age, anyway, alhamdulillah, I turned 26 since the last 5 days. No fancy ceremony, just had nice dinner cooked by makcik [Sani's mother-thanks] with special friends at my home, on the eve of my birthday. And nice lunch with colleagues on the day.[and dinner with dia as well]

After a year, and wishing for the good years ahead, insyaAllah.

Dear friend[s] thanks for the wishes and the presents [and still waiting].

Ada yang special pada tahun lepas
tapi tahun ni, dia wish lambat sangat.

Ada yang takde pun dalam hidup saya tahun lepas
tapi tahun ni dia[orang] wish saya pagi2 buta…

Ada yang wish saya awal 3 hari
tapi bila hari besday yang betul2 dia tak wish pun…hehe

Ada yang wish dan belanja makan.
Thanks so much. [Lunch dan dinner saya ditaja hari tu...]

Saya sayang semuanya. Thanks.

Hope we all can grow old together. Hehe.