Pagi semalam I twitted something sounds like this, (malas nak cek twitter)

ada orang yang dah hilang hak sebagai kawan. lebih kepada saling mengenali

Lebih kurang gitulah bunyinya.

Bukan apa. Ini sebenarnya untuk orang-orang tertentu yang telah kecilkan hati saya banyak kali. (Terbayang each of them as I type this).

Saya tak tahu macam mana berkawan (in real life, not as in your FB friends list). Ada orang kata friends tak perlu say sorry.  Saya tak rasa itu betul. Friends itu, friends ini. AH, kita dimomokkan dengan all those sweet things about friendship. Friendship tu kan tulus, ikhlas. Betul, tak mengharapkan apa apa balasan tapi bila kita saja yang memberi, terfikir juga, friendship ke begitu? I mean if saling tak mengharap balasan, sebelah lagi tu buat apa? Keep on asking asking and asking without giving anything.

Mungkin saya ni terlalu cerewet, terlalu berpegang pada definisi persahabatan yang saya belajar dari himpunan kata-kata manis dari kecil lagi, mungkin sebab itu definisi persahabatan adalah terlalu kompleks untuk saya.

Sedaya mungkin saya cuba jaga persahabatan saya dengan orang yang sudi berkawan dengan saya, tapi saya pernah juga orang label sebagai tak reti bersahabat. Alhamdulillah, dia berkata benar dengan saya, menyedarkan saya. Itu kan sahabat. Bercakap benar walaupun pahit. Saya syukuri ada kawan2 yang macam ni. Yang sentiasa menyokong tapi bila sesuatu itu salah akan tetap menyedarkan saya, bukannya membabi buta tetap menyokong.  InsyaAllah, saya akan juga bercakap benar dan berterus terang dengan mereka sekiranya perlu.  Kawan yang baik akan membuatkan kita sentiasa mahu jadi yang baik.

Ada orang kata saya ni baik sangat, sebab tu orang sesuka hati datang dan pergi dari hidup saya. Hi. Saya pun pernah juga datang dan pergi sesuka hati dalam hidup orang. Tapi sekali saja. Tak ada ulangan datang dan pergi berkali kali. Tapi orang-orang yang kata dia kawan saya ni ada jenis yang berulang kali datang dan pergi sesuka hati dari saya, sebab mungkin mereka sedar saya ni akan tetap kawan dengan mereka. Saya pun tak pernah terfikir yang hal ni masuk dalam kategori saya ni baik sangat. Yang saya tahu, saya ni suka berkawan. Dan mungkin ada alasan mereka nak datang dan pergi sesuka hati mereka. Entahlah.

Malas lagi saya nak tulis. Berkawan ni kan luas definisinya. Janganlah kita sempitkan. Tapi kalau dah selalu sangat saya tertanya-tanya pada diri, saya rasa lebih baik tak ada kawan, kan? Teruk tak?

Bukanlah bermakna saya tak nak kawan terus. Tapi… entahlah. Lebih baik kita just jadi saling mengenali. (Acquaintances) Oh, saya kenal dia, instead of saying, oh, dia kawan saya. Walaupun memori saya dengan dia adalah seluas lautan, atau setinggi gunung. Kalau banyak yang pahit dari yang manis, biarlah…

Hmm.

Mungkin ada orang yang terus buang saya dari senarai kawan dia lepas baca entry ni. Maaflah.

Hal mungkin jadi berbeza, mungkin lebih baik begitu.

Salam.

Filed under: like-like ]]> http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/30/berkawan/feed/ 10 cacah http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/28/update-lagi/ http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/28/update-lagi/#comments Sat, 28 Jan 2012 08:38:36 +0000 aishahkay http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/?p=3422 ]]> Kalau I rajin jangan tegur~ nanti jadi malas…

Pagi tadi I called my mum… then she burst the news… that I was being summoned and charged for an accident that happened almost a year ago. That I have to attend a trial at my hometown this coming February. I was like, hmmm. So lazy.

Actually I can’t stop thinking about it. I don’t know how to react. I was in shock actually.

Because that happened last March, and my car was kissed by a motorcyclist. And I did lodge a police report on this. I didn’t know how they arranged it but actually I kena saman dan perlu hadir ke mahkamah.

HUHU.

Takpelah, apa2 pun, doakan lah yang baik2 sahaja.

Malasnya….

Oh, my brother pun kena juga because I was driving his car at that time. Kesian pulak. So sorry bro.

And this new office laptop is quite a slow poke. The keyboard wasn’t very quick…. and its so rata (keyboard I mean), to make it easy I am still not familiar with this MAC-alike keyboard. I think I don’t like it. Yeah, I am old-fashioned like that.

Now I am taking few days break from Facebook. It’s becoming an annually ritual, should I put it that way. I had once deactivated my account last year, because I simply wanted to run from someone so instead of deleting/blocking him which is kind of rude, I chose to just deactivate my account. Simple. I don’t know whether or not it worked out but that person didn’t do anything to find me pun, hee so I think it was working.

So the reason for this hiatus, I might choose to relate it to an event I had organized few weeks ago, which to be truth, while it was fun, the pressure of organizing things alone were too much that I decided that I needed to take this break. Yeah, I know that choosing to get away from FB made me lost my privileges as Admin to some groups, but what should I do, I think I really need this break. It’s been close to 2 weeks. (Yeah, not that long, but for someone who used to check her FB 10 times per waking hour, this is a success story~)

I went back home last week. As usual I was driving alone. I think I am mastering that skill now. HEHE. Such a narcissist. Okay, well now it’s me and these unavailable men again.  Last week alone I had received some get together invitation from this unavailable men. You know. It’s not that I don’t want to see them, hack I love talking to a man! HAHA but I think it’s not appropriate anymore. I am not getting any younger to mess around anymore, I have to learn to live a better life.

Oh I have outlined some plans for this year but somehow along the planning I have done some ask around and thinking just to find out that I am left with an open junction whether or not to go on with that plan, because after all I have found the pros and cons are somehow balanced. I either just go on and stick to the flow or just dump that plan and move on (and forget that plan). If I go on I might have nothing to lose but if I dump it, I am not anything better I guess.

Mum talked me into marriage thing. HUH. That’s one thing that is not in the plan, at least not this year. Mum shrugged to that statement. Well. What to do mum, your daughter is not as lucky as you when you’re younger. But I had my win in other side, so I guess it’s a win-win situation.  Yeah, I am all aware that having my own basic family is a complement to my life, but I believe it will come, insyaAllah. Truthfully I don’t know how to work on that, God help me.

Hmmm.

I think it’s time to pen off now. I have this invitation letter for an APEC Forum in Singapore, wish me luck. All the best to us all, may these few weeks of January had already brought in something meaningful to everyone.InsyaAllah!

Good day~

Cheers~

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All the best to them at the new office!

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I selalulah jatuh cinta pada orang yang salah.

HMMMMM.

Filed under: bas..., hmmmm, self searching ]]> http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/15/jatuh-cintaaaaaaa/feed/ 3 cacah http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/10/again/ http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/2012/01/10/again/#comments Tue, 10 Jan 2012 08:36:57 +0000 aishahkay http://assistdirect.wordpress.com/?p=3406 ]]> I am sitting here, in the chaos of the Immigration Hall, in the middle of people rushing right and left, front and back…
I have heard rumours that this Program Pemutihan will be extended up until March, though the given number will be stopped this midnight.

I knew some employers were given dates of appointments, some of them will be here again in March! I don’t know about this but I am so sure that my boss won’t like this. Me too.

Plus, today we were given a printer.  We were also informed that from now on we will have to start to key in the employees datas by ourselves. I was like, why didn’t they give us this thing earlier? And now today’s the last day, only now it occured to them that given us the authority of keying in the datas will make things easier for them. I was hoping and voicing this matter since the first week. It would be easy for me because I could arrange better interview sessions with employers… I wouldn’t have to be sitting here and waiting for them to key in all the datas until the last stage, after consuming almost half a day, only the employers will be sent to my counter.

Sometimes the emplyers have all the documents complete and sometimes they don’t; and this is such a waste of their time. Worse after spending hours then when at our counter (the last before levi payment), we have to reject their applications due to some misunderstandings.

I know that I am still lucky for my subsector is not as significant if compared to manufacturing, agriculture and construction sectors.  I didn’t have to work that much like the kdn people, and all. But I was thinking for them, I am thinking for a better arrangement and management for this program.

I don’t know. I guess I just wish all would be over soon. If only the government didn’t really give “face” to the private and force them to work as scheduled, things maybe easier for everyone of us.

Good day~