Grapevines! I love the fire fighting syndrome by Datuk D. It was brilliant!
So, there was a news, or the grapevines distributed by fellow friends about the promotion. Heh. I am not that looking forward into it. I don’t think I am as enthusiastic as others, at least. Not that I am not excited or ambitious enough to get excited by the news, but hmmm…I believe the time will comes. It’s only a matter of time.
It’s only a paper that will come in my tray..(where’s my tray?) to confirm that I am a step further to the much awaited promotion. Huh. It doesn’t involve any increment in my paycheck, not that I can I recall. If it is there, it will be in August, perhaps. Hope so. I need the money. Frankly. Who doesn’t? Even the rich would work anyhow to get richer. What more a marhaen like me. With the rise of price of everything. Sure, the people need more money than usual.
My Big Boss (BB) demands me to stay, so it seems. He was saying and directing as if I’ll be staying in this department forever. I guess there’s no way I am gonna get my butt out of here. Sometimes I think I like it here, but at much more other time, I wish I could learn something new any where else. But when I look at my Small Boss (SB) and his commitment (which is critical than mine) I do think I have to stay and help him. Sometimes it crosses my mind to think that the BB is crazy. Excuse me for that. But there are time when I feel like I wanted to cry doing the work.
BB is now holding the promotion of one of my seniors. The senior had his new placement in KL, at another department but somehow BB would like to retain him, insisted in calling and pleading to the Jakhidam in order to retain my senior. Huh. Pity my senior. It seems that my SB is gonna face the exact same situation when it comes to his promotion.
I could summarize that being here, I could just watch and process the trainings and courses the specialized officers attend, in or out of country. When it came to my field-related-courses, I had to sacrifice them because I just have to be in the office. How was that? Pathetic right? I was busy running here and there processing their flights, their fees, their claim of whatever but then I have just to stay in the office when they are attending the course.
Anyway, I am just an officer managing the finance, not some genius of this department’s main responsibility. I can go to any course organized by any department or Mins so they said. But when the time has come, there’ll be some noise like “Oh sorry Aishah, we can’t let you go, no officer’s incharge, so you have to be in the office…” and I would say, Whattheheck, in my mind, of course.
But, when talking to friends, I realized that I am at better place, at least than some of them.
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