Dulu masa dekat U, I pernah lepak ngan my exschoolmate, nama dia NeriEdison. (Bukan nama sebenar). I cerita pasal member school yang lain.
NeriEdison : Mu nak kapel ngan skulmate ke shah!?
Me : Doklah NE. Bakpo?
NE : Aku tengok Friendster (masa tu zaman friendster) macam tak matang jah. Gambar sorang-sorang. Huh!
Me : Bakpo?
NE : Dok matured la budok2 nih…
Me : Thinking and thinking and fell into silence.
Now, few years after above conversation, I still think about it, and at times, I can’t help but agree with NE’s statement.
I don’t know. Maybe I wasn’t as matured but I believe I handled some situation better than those boys (who I used to have a crush over them in school). You, I am so easy to fall in and out of love, since school. I could handle if it was fated that they weren’t as into me. Believe me, I’d rather be friends than anything else.
I attended the wedding of schoolmates, and I saw an ex schoolmate. I used to have a crush on him. I guess he still afraid that I still like him like I did in school (some 15 years ago-Gosh!) that he had never talked to me like a normal schoolmates did. Why!!! So, yes, I talked to everyone but not him there and worse thing was, another friend of mine came up to me and introduced a girl as his fiancee………………
Maybe I am having crazy thoughts but, I can’t help to think that he had to do that to me (ask someone else to introduce the fiancee) to remind me that he IS NOW taken!
Okay, I am crazy and delusional. But!
(to the schoolmates who happened to read this, well, what could I do-things happened)
*additional note : I know I’ve been questioning things a lot… please bear with me.