Do you know this feeling, that, when you feel like you’re being sad, but you can’t be sad. You can’t get to be sad, something like that. Like you have to convince yourself that you’re indeed, feeling sad.
I want to feel sad, but I know that it’s worthless.
It’s like, I want to be sad, but in my working mind, I’ve been reminding myself over and over again, that the thing that makes me sad, doesn’t worth my time and energy. That I have a lot of other things to be happy about, rather than resorting to being sad. (I need to be more thankful each day) — that some prayers are being answered, I’m blessed indeed.
Do you understand this?