Fear of losing

Berkawan dan berkawan, entahlah, kadang-kadang risau bila terlebih rapat, persahabatan jadi macam tak berapa ikhlas.  Pertama, I risau bila orang ingat I suka dia lebih, and kedua, paling menakutkan bila I yang jadi suka dia, dan dia tak suka I macam I suka dia.  Sebenarnya benda ni tak patut difikirkan pun, sebab apa yang akan terjadi, akan terjadi, kan?

Sampai macam tu sekali tahap malas nak layan perasaan sendiri tu, sebab rasa macam takdelah penting sangat.  Tapi kadang-kadang bila datang perasaan yang tak berapa difahami tu, itu yang jadi rasa macam… hmmm entahlah, patut dah umur-umur macam ni takde dah perasaan ala-ala remaja ni. #BBNU sangat kan?

I hope things won’t be awkward.

 

Hiding My Heart – Brandi Carlile cover by Adele

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
It blew me away
Blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I’ve ever known
You disappear one day
So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station
Put a kiss on top of your head
Watch you wave
And watched you wave

Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
And neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I’ve ever known
You disappear one day
So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away, away

Woke up feeling heavy-hearted
I’m going back to where I started
The morning rain, the morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
On that same old road that brought me here
It’s calling me home, It’s calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I’ve ever known
You disappear one day
So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away
I can’t spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I is confuse

  • The top management had their weekly meeting, sometimes when the boss isn’t around, I got the chances to be there as well. So last week, there’s a meeting that the boss attended herself.  This week she kept on asking me about a thing that was discussed in the last week’s meeting. I was so confuse. It’s supposed to be her to give me notes/instructions on the issue but apparently she’s asking me as though I know the decision or the agreement from that particular meeting;
  • I understand that the boss’s works/tasks are endless, but I somehow believe in good management and empowerment of the resources too. I am a firm believer that I should trust my colleagues, my staffs and assistants with their capabilities that they can do anything that is within their purview, or extra if they are given trust. I’m saying this because, I was confuse on some decisions made by the boss, that involved my on going projects;
  • I am in the midst of finalizing the course/assignment/evaluation study about my core unit and the final presentation is scheduled next week somewhere out station – apparently the boss assigned someone else to present that. I mean, I am confuse because we’ve been moving here and there, meeting the target groups, presenting the progress to various panels so far… and in the end, she gave the task to someone else – who she knew very well is busy with other bigger event coming up in Oct;
  • Do you understand my confusion?

p.s : Currently reading the Leadership Wisdom by Robin Sharma.

Resipi Sup Ayam with Spinach Noodle

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Hi, semalam I masak ni, sebab rasa nak makan sup yang sihat. Gitu. Okay senang je, bahan-bahan ni tentu ada sentiasa di rumah you all.

Bahan-bahan
Ayam – I ambik seketul ciken wing je dengan drumstick kecik tu…
Bawang merah – 2 ulas, hiris
Bawang putih – 2 ulas juga, hiris
Halia – setengah inci, hiris halus juga
Cili padi – ikut suka, I letak 2 ketul je
Star anise, cengkih and kulit kayu manis – seketul-seketul je
Air tapis (coway) (200ml je)
Minyak nak numis sikit
Garam – sikit sikit sudah, jaga kesihatan kan
Mee bayam – beli di Jaya Grocer (guna seketul je) – satu paket ada 6 kut, RM4.50
Sayur – I masuk sawi and cendawan enoki tu… ikut suka kalau nak banyak sayur letak la banyak

Cara-cara nak masak

  1. Tumis star anise, kulit kayu manis and cengkih tu, sampai wangi
  2. Masukkan bawang-bawang dan halia, sampai wangi juga
  3. Masukkan ayam – goreng sama-sama bahan2 tumis tu sampai ala-ala brown
  4. Lepas tu masukkan la air tu… sampai mendidih
  5. Masukkan sayur-sayur bagi lembut
  6. Masukkan mee bayam tu, kat paket dia tulis 6 minit sambil kacau sekali sekala.
  7. Lepas 6 minit letak mee tu, okay, dah siap dah.

Ambik masa less than 30 minit je nak masak ni. Buleh buat lagi bila-bila.

Selamat mencuba.