Tomorrow

It’s my late mum’s birthday tomorrow.

How I missed her, it’s like I still can hear her voice, her excited and cheerful voice when we spoke on the phone the last time, the last night before her passing.

Al Fatihah.

Last year, she was here, at my Putrajaya home on her birthday, I took her to National Museum and she even followed us siblings to Uptown Mines the night before, she said that she needed to walk, to practice for saie (she went for Hajj last November, and she passed away 5 days after returning home). May Allah bless her, and may our good deed will be with her, insyaAllah.

I am not sure about my other siblings, they seem so strong, I hope they are stronger inside.

I am not sure about what future holds, but I wish that we will always be blessed, though most of the times I found myself slipping away from Allah. Hopefully I will be better muslim…

last year, during school break 🙂

at the National Museum

Celebrating her 54th birthday, last year.
May Allah bless her soul…

 

 

Harus tahu

Entri tak fikir panjang mana.

Pada masa ini ada banyak lagi perkara yang lebih penting untuk kau selain dari yang kau terkejar-kejar tu. Ada kerja, tanggungjawab pada keluarga dan juga pelajaran yang kau gatal nak sambung tu. Faham tak?

Walaupun begitu, hati kecil kau yang degil tu selalu jugak nak jerit jerit, nak benda yang tak pasti jadi milik kau. Kan. Cuba bersyukur sikit dan fikir dalam dalam, tarik nafas panjang-panjang dan ingat, yang Allah dah jadikan sesuatu tu sudah tepat pada tempatnya, cumanya mahu kau sabar. Ingat dan hargai apa yang kau ada, daripada nak mengharapkan benda yang tak pasti tu.

Cuba serapkan dalam diri, hati, lubuk kalbu dan segalanya yang boleh, yang tak semestinya apa yang kau mahu tu, baik untukmu dan tak semestinya apa yang kau tolak itu, buruk untukmu. Ingat tu.

Dan, masih juga hati mahu jerit perlahan-lahan,

Tuhan, aku rasa sebahagian kecil hati aku ini sudah dicuri. Oleh orang yang tak menyedari perlakuan jahat dia yang telah mencuri hati aku ini.

Yang benar,

pemalu yang mahu.

 

Miss Advised ;-)

Well,

I don’t know if you guys watch this show or not, but forgive me, I am a sucker for this kind of chic tv show. The show is one of a kind, where I think I could relate to one of the three actors. My favourite would have been Julia Allison. She’s a dating expert, as they said. Basically I think, we’ve been through few similar situations and we used to be looking for the one. 😛 (I am happy that now she’s found her Mr. Right, while me, err still searching or maybe I am just resting for a while and letting things happen).

I read Julia’s blog and I think there’s a lot of references that I could (relate) relate to, of  course. But as Julia said, it’s when we learned and knew how to be loved then, the love will find us, hopefully, well I do hope I didn’t misunderstand her point.

There are also Amy (the matchmaker) and Emily (the sex expert). While both things are something taboo in our culture, I believe that the audiences are adult enough to observe those appropriate acts only. I can’t help but think those who blame others over their own stupid acts are merely, stupid, (that) they can’t think for themselves. Well, I did being stupid sometimes but well, to blame others, please.

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On other note, I have found this cute blog, named Oldstock, basically about a man who tells stories while reminiscing his past, with relate-able experiences that could make (wise) men, women, boys and girls more grateful to be here. Though when I read it, I almost wished I was at the same age with him and had same chances as he had, now that seems ungrateful hehe. I wish him the best.

So, tomorrow I will be having my first class for this new semester, oh, I forget to share that I was offered (after much hassle, and of course I applied for it) a scholarship by JPA that it will cover my study fee, well, that means so much. Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, all the best, I hope we will all have a bliss and blessed weekend. Insha Allah.

Take (good) care. Someone used to say this a lot. I miss him, not. Just a thought, okay, I wish he could make up his mind, but that’s another story, pray for me.

Again, take care. 🙂

Love.

Semalam

Tayar pancit, terpaksa panggil my colleagues to help me out, biasalah perempuan. Hee. Kat situ baru nak tulis, biasalah perempuan, biasanya nak mengaku yang kita ni sama kuat je ngan lelaki. Kuat mental, ye kut. Kuat fizikal, tak naklah, tak ayu nanti.

I pergi tampal tayar semua, RM6. Kat Putrajaya ni mahal seringgit dari tempat lain tapi okay je, mampu kan. Rezeki kedai tu.

I whatsapped gambar tayar pancit kat sorang ni dia tanya I, did you fix it by yourself? I jawab, mestilah tak. Tak ayulah kan nak tercongok congok pakai baju kurung tukar tayar. 😛 Dia pun cakap, if you did, you’d be the coolest woman.

Takpelah. Tak cool pun, I tetap hot gitu.

Flat kan.

a 2 cm screw found it’s place there

Balik awal semalam, nak tengok Suits.

Cerita Suits ni ditujukan khas buat ex hoomie, Cik Hani yang apa apa je lah.

semalam ditakdirkan birthday Rachel, so ayah dia bawak dia gi lunch. Ayah Rachel ni rupanya peguam yang hebat. Robert Zane namanya. Robert ni macam tak menghargai Rachel la, dia selalu cakap seolah Rachel ni failure sebab dah lama2 pun masih lagi jadi para legal, tak jadi lawyer lagi. Rachel bengang la.

Dia balik opis, and tahu bahawa Pearson and Hardman nak lawan ngan Robert Zane on a case, so dia offer to work with Mike and Harvey to beat her father. Masa ni isu dia macam personal la sikit. Pastu Mike tak tahu yang dia nak lawan tu ayah Rachel tapi once dia tahu, dia jadi macam pengampu sikit macam nak ambik hati pak mentua so Harvey macam menyampah la. Tapi menyampah bodoh2 ala ala gurau2 yang biasa la…

So lawan2 macam biasa lah, dalam fakta fakta tu ada jugalah isu emosi anak beranak…. So macam kita selalu tengok, Harvey and Mike mesti ada point yang tidak boleh dikalahkan lah, kan?

Last2 ayah Rachel pun sedarlah yang anak dia tu perlukan sokongan, dan bukan dipandang rendah, kebetulan isu malam tadi ialah gender, diorang lawan kes pasal gender so adalah isu-isu yang berkaitan kan.

Ending, si Robert Zane tarik diri dari kes tu, so digantikan oleh Daniel Hardman yang telah dipecat dari his own company, Pearson (Jessica) and Hardman. Dia nak ambil kes tu to fight against Harvey and Mike.

So, that’s all, bersambung next week.

 

😛

 

Mike and Harvey 😉