Something is not right

Ha, I don’t even know what or why or how, but a big part of me is yearning to go out and travel. I miss the beach (who doesn’t) and particularly I miss the feeling of traveling, most probably alone.

I think I need some time out. I will not justify my feeling for I know there are some people who’ve been through more difficult time than me.

I don’t even know why am I feeling this, I just feel tired.


Al Fatihah


Dimaklumkan adik I, Noor Ainun binti Kamarzaman, 34 telah meninggal dunia pada Isnin, 9 Julai 2018.  She was a cancer fighter. She was diagnosed with cancer, stage 3 in December 2016.

She was my first girl friend, though not quite close during our childhood but as we grew up, she found it easy to share with me most of her dreams, and ambitions and secrets.

Today is my birthday, and I would ask your kindness to recite Al Fatihah to her and my late mother, and to me too, as my birthday gift.


Thank you.



Adik oh adik

Adik bongsu I nampaknya tak boleh terima budaya di kolej dia tempat dia register Sabtu lepas and it’s now only 2 days but he’s been texting my father and my sister to share his unhappiness. I know that I’ve sort of pushed him to register himself in the college but then I was thinking of his own good.

Now we are all persuading him to stay for two more weeks and see how things go. I know that the first week could be like hell, with the orientation and having to wake up earliest in the morning. Ah, I am bit worried too.

Come to think of it, why is it so hard for these two youngest brothers of mine to stay at the first college they got? My 7th brother also ran away (sort of) from his college and asked my father to send him somewhere else and now with this number 8, I am foreseeing almost similar incident. Oh, please I loathe the private college.

Please pray for my brother’s happiness, anyone reading this? Hope he would find joy and happiness in this new place.

p.s : Why do we (some colleges) feel the need to put the new students in such a unhappy situation during the first week of being out of district, far from family for the first time (on some cases)?



Culture – and a bit of anything else

During the training in Thailand, there was a point when I was placed in a room with three other Muslimah.  It was in Koh Chang or Island of Elephant. We stayed in a beautiful community resort – The Salakphet. My room mates were from Indonesia, Bangladesh and Pakistan.

 Farhana (Bangladesh) and Kusma (Indonesia) are happily married while Marvi and I are still single. Marvi was the kind of doing her own business, I think there were only few times in that two weeks that she would come and have full conversation with us.  Apart from us, there were another 5  ladies from various countries during the course. All of us got along well, except for Marvi.

During the stay (we stay there for a night), Farhana was asking me on why I am still single and all. I wouldn’t mind the conversation because at that time we could be already considered as close friends… Farhana kept on telling me the benefit of being married etc (like I don’t know… hahaa) but we just had that chit chat while waiting for the turn to use the bathroom.

Suddenly, Marvi came and told us… “I am also single” We were shocked, because a) she’s pretty and b) she’s quite older than most of us.

I was saying to Farhana, that in my country, if anybody ask me about these, I would classify them as nosy… hehehe. That was when Marvi chirped in and said “I am also single…. and yes, in my country… this could be considered as nosy as well”

Farhana quickly apologized and she was like.. “I am so sorry Aisha… I don’t know” I was like, nah, it’s okay.

Marvi then proceeded to tell us that as she has been working for too long (and ehem own quite some money) she doesn’t believe in men and I think at some point she was about to tell us that she thinks men are after her money. Hmmm. She said she doesn’t like to talk about the salary, about her work and about her singleness.

Oh, anyway, I don’t think she really likes talking pun. HAHA. Seriously when we were having dinner and laughing she would slowly got up and excused herself. Maybe she thought that we were a bit childish to be in her social circle.  (She even left the Whatsapps Group).

Marvi (Pakistan), Jisha (India), Thinley (Bhutan), me, Shahid (Pakistan) and Noorullah (Afghanistan)
Uncle(Afghanistan), Kit (Laos), Pema (Bhutan), Mazhar (Bangladesh), Mary (PNG), Randeni (Sri Lanka) and Swarti (India)
Farhana (Bangladesh), Fikry (Maldives), Kusma (Indonesia), Brian (Indonesia), Tin (Myanmmar), Masitha (Sri Lanka) and Rahim (Malaysia)

These were the groups for our transportation. We moved all over the place in 3 vans. So the vans were called – Lovely, Friends, Forever.

Nice eh.

The course was such a fun one. It was on eco-tourism! Tourism! We went to different part of Thailand in those 15 days together. Bangkok, Pattaya, Koh Chang, Samaesarn Island, Chantaburi, Chonburi… Hmm.

Okaylah, that’s all for now. Have a great day!