break up make up

heard from a gal pal, she broke up with her boy friend yesterday.  hmm. this news influenced me, badly.  her boy friend did many things to make this relationship up.  so did she.  but feeling can’t be fooled.  the love is not there.  the relationship is going on because of the years they had together. once.

the years when they are their number one. he was the one for her, and so she was the one for him.  her x told me if the girl stay in this relationship, based only on sympathy, then he will let her go.  he doesnt want this girl to suffer, and to sacrifice herself for someone else. he just wanted her to be happy.  but the girl won’t go away, because she’s so guilty.  gulty of leaving her long term and loving x boy friend.  the boy friend she loved so much before she knew another guy who does love her the same.  but this new guy is more sensitive to her feeling and life.  the guy she combfortable to be with. hmm

so i told him, life must go on.  if love doesn’t stay, we also have to move on.  memories linger. that’s what they are for.  to remind us of what we’ve gone through. 


we don’t really plan it, right?

“i am not going to be at the AGM. u knew it, right?” that was how the conversation started. the one that set me in not-so-good mood.

i thought i am going to that AGM.  our department annual meeting.  i was supposed to be one of the high committee.  but, my name is listed for an HR course.  at the same time of the AGM. what can i do.  my immediate boss-we call him Mr. A, ok? had agreed to let me be in the course.  so i think this course is better to be in than the AGM, but since i am the committee, i had to forsake this chance to attend the course. u see, when i am to attend any course, there will be something blocking my way.huh.

for example, on the third week of August, i was supposed to attend a seminar, but because the workload is mounting high, my big boss (Mr. D) didn’t allow me to be there. yes, as other officers are away…and there is no officer in charge of the office, so they placed me here.(in the office) hah whatever…i get used to this.

luckily, i had friends to turn to.  never mind if some of the guys (105ers) tend to make fun of my innonceneness, it was fun and relief to tell them and then, listen to their comments which are hardly useful…but i will be having nice laugh with them.

something’s coming up. so gtg.

the warm atmosphere

had nice time during lunch with some friends, yes from the group of 300 something. or we would like to be known as one-zero-fivers (105ers).  talked about anything we can lead to.  when a person mutters a word, the rest will go and talk, about anything related to the word. haha, anyway, those who understand will understand. 😛

planned a great get along tonite.  to watch this movie : flushed away.  had booked 10 tickects.  at tgv. 

warm atmosphere : my office, to be more precise.  it contains of a group of warm officers, though sometimes they neglected me but they somehow tried to be nice to me.  and the staff are cool! we can talk about anything and can always make hot gossiped. haha that’s what i love most.  heh, wasting time doing nothing expect chatting. while having a cup of tea. hmm nice.

anyway, there’s a little part of the office who doesn’t belong to this warm group.  not that they don’t try, but we (the warm and cool ones :P) can’t afford to approve them.  whenever they tried to mingle, we, will find some way to escape or to ignore their words, or worse their presence. haha. i guess it is a common thing in any office.

my immediate bos had treat me a nice meal. for lunch. it was a usual fried chicken, with rice.  but it was so delicious! maybe because it came from the sincere heart, haha.

next week will be a busy week. so this weekend. had 1 invitation for wedding ceremony and 3 openhouses on saturday. and on sunday we will be organizing an openhouse, at my friend’s house. em yes.  from 105ers..

guess that’s all. have an openhouse to attend this evening. enjoy.

so much is going on

i don’t really know whether this blog will last or not.  i am afraid if i’ll forget the password.. i already had a friendster blog, but i think there are somethings are not public enough to be posted there.  so i hope the security of this blog is better than the friendster’s one.

so much is going on.  my life evolved badly during first 6 months of the year.  i met more friends, a bunch of good friends whom i can always turn to…made some hot scandals, huh…made it at first without knowing that those relationship will turn into hot stuff…

so much is going on around me.  friends left, friends got married, friends had babies…friends flew.  for better.

had a relationship.  had to break it up. forever and for good.

had an on going friendship.  a special friendship with those 300 something people.  funny right? 300 something? nevermind.  those who understand will understand.

boyfriends? i survive so far, without one.  lucky me.  anyway, still hoping for a boyfriend. it’s a girl’s dream. 

life? enjoy it.  at least by the time i post this.

job? being one and only female officer here,  i get used to get along with those lame jokes.  and to be neglected during course or seminar is a common thing.  i am needed to manage things, and when things are going on smooth, they tend to forget me. complain? no. i am not that sort of people.  maybe i’ll fight but now i just want to sit and watch. until? until someone realize that i am in the office…

enjoy the first.  more to come. 


and here i am.  had a discussion with some friends, about love…perhaps love.  got some advices…

they said, be cool…life must go on.  don’t do dumb and numb things.  don’t fall in love blindly.  when love choose to leave, we have to keep on living.  and searching or just waiting, maybe love is just a step away.  maybe love is far away. but, it sure is there.  only this time it’s not ours.  not ours to hold, to keep and to share.

there’s so much more in life, to be missed.  keep ur heart stubborn, but keep it soft too.  manage it.  don’t be fooled by all those sweet things and quotes about love. not everything in this world is exaclty as it s been said or written.

life is full, it s for us to explore.  to explore in our own way, alone or together.  still the fun is there.  it s on us, to share or to keep.  we deserve the best we could have.  don’t settle for the second best, so as people said.  but if we did settle for the second best, maybe we can trun it into the best, at least our best.  the best in our eyes, thoughts and memories. 

so much.  enjoy and be prepared. life is full of unexpected events.  take care.  cherish those things and persons we had.