just a lil’

i think many will agree if i say just a little thing can bring so much meaning to one’s life. right? (put your hands up!) yeah…

i was at my friend’s engagement ceremony when i felt so blessed, i felt like to cry when her uncle said that they were confirmly engaged. huh, i didnt know why i was so damn touched by the language and the ceremony itself. it was little but meaningful thing that touched many people’s feeling..or is it only me? huhu

i have to confess that i am easily touched by a little sweet or sad thing. it is a common thing to see me cry after a sad movie, or nonstoppedly laughed after a funny movie. it’s me. that’s who i am.

okay, it’s lunch time already. and i have to make move sooner. friends are waiting though. yes, the 105ers one. so see ya.


forgive me please…

last nite i went shopping again, with aimi…and end up having dinner with jimi baik, sani, and razi (who had a feeling we were there, he went straight away from kuantan to de thai..)…and guess what, had a kind of hot discussion with jimi baik. about khai.

i didnt know why but i had a bit of uneasy feeling when it came about khai. i am so disappointed with him. not that he is some kind of jerk or what, but he was such a best friend to me, once. but during dpa we went our own way moreover we were placed in different sidang, so the oppurtunity to spend time or hang out together was next to none. so much had happened and we were getting far apart. we didnt have much to talk even when we had time because we missed so much things about each other. dpa was so hectic and we just wanted to do our own things, couldnt care more about other people. and this is what happen between me and khai. (kind of hard to explain but i tried here..)

last nite jimi said nicest thing about khai and suddenly i was so pissed off i was angry with jimi for bringing up about him. (it’s not that i dont want to hear about him, after all he’s still my friend – i thought so la)

hmm so much things. anyway, to cut it short (i have meeting in 12 minutes), i already called khai and told him i said not nice things about him, and already asked for his forgiveness. i hope i am forgiven.

it was nothing khai. i just missed our good old days. friendship forever. i always hoping for your best.

really need this..(i thought)

i was so tense this morning. i just didn’t know why. i had no mood to go have breakfast with the usual corum. maybe because the late-late night outing i had in two straight nights. and the workload is abusing me…felt like i had to take care of  everything in the office…

we had the usual wednesday morning meeting this morning. and with the progress of everything, there will be troubles coming along.  and yes, i had to manage and deal with those things… feel so tired. both physically and mentally.

i just want to curl and rest now. if i closed my eyes, for sure i will be drifting away. no of course i can’t do that. i had so much work to do…

anyway, to my abang, selamat bertunang! wish you happy always. don’t quite believe he’s gonna get engaged so soon. after all that happened. (don’t know why am i so damn excited about this.. 😛 )

to my awak, i miss you, so much. wish u were here. why when we were apart from each other the emotion will be taking things over? why are we so damn playing with our ego before? i don’t know why, but yesterday i was so confidently addressed u as my long-distance boy friend? :p hope u don’t mind. miss u dear.

friends, i am really grateful for having u guys around me, to lean and to turn to, happy or sad, we’ll stick together. love u guys. thanks for being around.

when am i going to…

this page had been opened since last 30 minutes and i didnt have a slight chance to type anything, because? my boss was sitting right before my eyes, to be precise, he was holding the backside of my laptop screen. and now they (my boss and my senior) are making jokes about the other officers. about who am i going to choose as my life partner is there were only these two guys in the world…haha, i noticed the face of Z and H were changed as my boss (Mr. .A) said that. surely they did feel a little shy.

tonite will be a movie nite. we are going to go and watch a movie-deathnote at cineleisure, the curve, somewhere in damansara. hopefully we will make it at time-because now it is raining heavily out there.

this morning, a special friend sent me an sms, which did make my day.  hmm i miss him so much.  wish he is here.  around, at least. but he’d been so busy (he told me that-i did trust him so far..) wish we can keep in touch as we’ve been before, during our uni years.

at lunch, had a marvellous get-together with the 105ers. hope this friendship will last forever, wish there will be one of us to be the next next next next Chief Secretary of the Government.  after lunch, i received a phone call telling me that i was appointed (with consensus of the hi committee) as the treasury of the 105ers.  what an honoured! hope i can give my best, because i am so proud with this committee.

a friend of mine will be having his special day this saturday, and bro, i am so proud to be one of the hi-witnesses. wish u happy. i always look up and respect you for being an entertaining brother. pray for me, will you. thanks for the invitation.

friendship sure mean a lot to me.  hopefully all my friends do feel the same. till here, bye for now. have a nice day.


spent almost two full days with some close friends (the 105ers).  doing nothing. just these : driving, or convoing?, eating out, attending openhouse invitations, and a wedding ceremony.  and watching a series of reshow of james bond. that was a great time.

and now, back to the weekdays, where most of the time is spent in the office. we hardly see each other, if we lucky enough, we could meet each other during dinner or teatea.  but most of the lads are somewhere else, attending the course for their department.  some had to go for retreat, inspection, meeting and likes…which make it possible for us to gather just like what we’d done last weekend.  and of course, i already missed them.

but as usual, (i said this way too many times, but i’ll say it again) life must go on! right? friends are there to support us, and to be with us when we need them.  so we must do that to them also.  we don’t do and hope them to do that to us, we first to make moves if we suspect something is wrong with our friends.  always try to keep in touch with them.

hmm something’s coming up.  had work to do.  i had my own job, to keep me alive. but friends make my life alive.  haha friends influence me sooo much.  tata

break up make up

heard from a gal pal, she broke up with her boy friend yesterday.  hmm. this news influenced me, badly.  her boy friend did many things to make this relationship up.  so did she.  but feeling can’t be fooled.  the love is not there.  the relationship is going on because of the years they had together. once.

the years when they are their number one. he was the one for her, and so she was the one for him.  her x told me if the girl stay in this relationship, based only on sympathy, then he will let her go.  he doesnt want this girl to suffer, and to sacrifice herself for someone else. he just wanted her to be happy.  but the girl won’t go away, because she’s so guilty.  gulty of leaving her long term and loving x boy friend.  the boy friend she loved so much before she knew another guy who does love her the same.  but this new guy is more sensitive to her feeling and life.  the guy she combfortable to be with. hmm

so i told him, life must go on.  if love doesn’t stay, we also have to move on.  memories linger. that’s what they are for.  to remind us of what we’ve gone through. 

we don’t really plan it, right?

“i am not going to be at the AGM. u knew it, right?” that was how the conversation started. the one that set me in not-so-good mood.

i thought i am going to that AGM.  our department annual meeting.  i was supposed to be one of the high committee.  but, my name is listed for an HR course.  at the same time of the AGM. what can i do.  my immediate boss-we call him Mr. A, ok? had agreed to let me be in the course.  so i think this course is better to be in than the AGM, but since i am the committee, i had to forsake this chance to attend the course. u see, when i am to attend any course, there will be something blocking my way.huh.

for example, on the third week of August, i was supposed to attend a seminar, but because the workload is mounting high, my big boss (Mr. D) didn’t allow me to be there. yes, as other officers are away…and there is no officer in charge of the office, so they placed me here.(in the office) hah whatever…i get used to this.

luckily, i had friends to turn to.  never mind if some of the guys (105ers) tend to make fun of my innonceneness, it was fun and relief to tell them and then, listen to their comments which are hardly useful…but i will be having nice laugh with them.

something’s coming up. so gtg.