as i wrote before in my other blog, i am now on my way to start a more meaningful life, next year, of course. not that my current life is bad or not good, but…i think there were way too many things i took for granted those days, especially my age.
being around peeps who are older than me, i am just playing and playing and thinking that i don’t have much things to consider, because i think i am still young! at 23, i got my first secure job, in the service where at my age, is considered too young and and lucky. so i took that words seriously, and enjoyed all those moments. but now i am 24 and next year i’ll be 25! (of course)…i think i’ve had to minimize the fun-fun activities and i have to start being more responsible towards my life, because, there are actually many things i should be taking care of.
i remember my uncle once said to me that if i just want to enjoy, then there’ll be no ending to that. (funny how we started to remember and admit those words are true now, rather than the moment we heard them first)… of course what he had said was always right, so now i think i am ready to take my life one step forward. (not that i m gonna get married or what) but i think my life needs a retreat. i need to muhasabah and re-assest my life. i really have to set my focus and target. but of course i will do it one at a time.
i believe there are many things we can do, if we’d only believe that we can do it. so…i think for now i will rest and relax, plan my target carefully, set the time frame, and next year i hope i can start well. for now, let me relax and watch how this year ends.
my lovelife. wow. seems like the forecast from the zodiac or whatsoever can’t really be believed. there is still no progress. i am in the state as i were last year (boyfriend-less). but this year i am blessed with so many friends who were always around for me. thanks friends.
i can’t imagine how i got through life during 2004 (after graduation) when i was alone, working somewhere in K.L without friends, except for the phone line operator and my life was only the same, home-office-home, everyday (even on saturday) and that was a torture, but thankfully i managed to get out off those bitter memories. during that time, most of my time was spent in front of the pc screen where i chat to some online friends about how miserable my life was. (being lied by my boss, got my paycheck late and i even saw my boss got hit by Along). that, anyway happened long time ago.
that was why i was so grateful to be accepted into this service. i am really grateful. but as i am getting used to this job, i started to forget how hard to get this job, and yes, i took things for granted. so now, i hope i can be better in the future. i hope i can do it. i believe i can do that. (positif echah, ko kan kuning!-those words sound familiar, rite?) 😛