Pergi Thailand hari tu…

I was in Thailand for about 2 weeks from end of April until early May 2018. I was there for a course on Sustainable EcoTOURISM.  Intentionally putting the Tourism in caps so that you might understand where I am going from there. Yes, the course took me around Thailand. From Bangkok to Chonburi, to Rayong, Pattaya, Chanthaburi. We went to two islands. The Ko Chang and Samaesan Island. We also went for hundreds of kilometers of road trips too.

Will continue later, haha.

(I am in Lawas, Sarawak now for a two days workshop for the rural enterprenuers) This is could also be identified as a retreat for me, the surrounding is, hmmm peaceful.


Except the Taxi Uncle told me a man was attacked by a crocodile few days ago…. and he’s dead.

There’s a river in front of the hotel.


Something is not right

Ha, I don’t even know what or why or how, but a big part of me is yearning to go out and travel. I miss the beach (who doesn’t) and particularly I miss the feeling of traveling, most probably alone.

I think I need some time out. I will not justify my feeling for I know there are some people who’ve been through more difficult time than me.

I don’t even know why am I feeling this, I just feel tired.


Al Fatihah


Dimaklumkan adik I, Noor Ainun binti Kamarzaman, 34 telah meninggal dunia pada Isnin, 9 Julai 2018.  She was a cancer fighter. She was diagnosed with cancer, stage 3 in December 2016.

She was my first girl friend, though not quite close during our childhood but as we grew up, she found it easy to share with me most of her dreams, and ambitions and secrets.

Today is my birthday, and I would ask your kindness to recite Al Fatihah to her and my late mother, and to me too, as my birthday gift.


Thank you.



Adik oh adik

Adik bongsu I nampaknya tak boleh terima budaya di kolej dia tempat dia register Sabtu lepas and it’s now only 2 days but he’s been texting my father and my sister to share his unhappiness. I know that I’ve sort of pushed him to register himself in the college but then I was thinking of his own good.

Now we are all persuading him to stay for two more weeks and see how things go. I know that the first week could be like hell, with the orientation and having to wake up earliest in the morning. Ah, I am bit worried too.

Come to think of it, why is it so hard for these two youngest brothers of mine to stay at the first college they got? My 7th brother also ran away (sort of) from his college and asked my father to send him somewhere else and now with this number 8, I am foreseeing almost similar incident. Oh, please I loathe the private college.

Please pray for my brother’s happiness, anyone reading this? Hope he would find joy and happiness in this new place.

p.s : Why do we (some colleges) feel the need to put the new students in such a unhappy situation during the first week of being out of district, far from family for the first time (on some cases)?



Raya 2018

Assalamualaikum, it’s 8th day of Raya already. I am now back in the office. Not much of progress anyway because most people are not yet back in the office.

I am still recovering or mostly, retrieving where did I stop before I went back to my hometown haha.

It was sure hard to bounce back after almost 10 days of being away from work. HEHE.

How was raya? Mine was just a slow day, I slept for about 2 hours maybe… it’s so hot in the afternoon, I changed my baju raya for a t-shirt. I went to visit mum’s grave after solah and then up for some photos with family before heading to my grandma’s. That was first day of raya.

Second day I went to my friend’s house… and then at night when to my aunt’s for some tahlil do…

Cooked some meal on 3rd raya… our house was flooded with guests, non-stop! Until maghrib.

4th raya, I went around to visit my schoolmates in Tanah Merah and Kota Bharu… and then, 5th raya I spent at the market and just be at home for the rest of the day…

6th raya I drove back to KL and spent the evening watching Ocean’s 8. That’s all… Sounds a bit bored?


Culture – and a bit of anything else

During the training in Thailand, there was a point when I was placed in a room with three other Muslimah.  It was in Koh Chang or Island of Elephant. We stayed in a beautiful community resort – The Salakphet. My room mates were from Indonesia, Bangladesh and Pakistan.

 Farhana (Bangladesh) and Kusma (Indonesia) are happily married while Marvi and I are still single. Marvi was the kind of doing her own business, I think there were only few times in that two weeks that she would come and have full conversation with us.  Apart from us, there were another 5  ladies from various countries during the course. All of us got along well, except for Marvi.

During the stay (we stay there for a night), Farhana was asking me on why I am still single and all. I wouldn’t mind the conversation because at that time we could be already considered as close friends… Farhana kept on telling me the benefit of being married etc (like I don’t know… hahaa) but we just had that chit chat while waiting for the turn to use the bathroom.

Suddenly, Marvi came and told us… “I am also single” We were shocked, because a) she’s pretty and b) she’s quite older than most of us.

I was saying to Farhana, that in my country, if anybody ask me about these, I would classify them as nosy… hehehe. That was when Marvi chirped in and said “I am also single…. and yes, in my country… this could be considered as nosy as well”

Farhana quickly apologized and she was like.. “I am so sorry Aisha… I don’t know” I was like, nah, it’s okay.

Marvi then proceeded to tell us that as she has been working for too long (and ehem own quite some money) she doesn’t believe in men and I think at some point she was about to tell us that she thinks men are after her money. Hmmm. She said she doesn’t like to talk about the salary, about her work and about her singleness.

Oh, anyway, I don’t think she really likes talking pun. HAHA. Seriously when we were having dinner and laughing she would slowly got up and excused herself. Maybe she thought that we were a bit childish to be in her social circle.  (She even left the Whatsapps Group).

Marvi (Pakistan), Jisha (India), Thinley (Bhutan), me, Shahid (Pakistan) and Noorullah (Afghanistan)
Uncle(Afghanistan), Kit (Laos), Pema (Bhutan), Mazhar (Bangladesh), Mary (PNG), Randeni (Sri Lanka) and Swarti (India)
Farhana (Bangladesh), Fikry (Maldives), Kusma (Indonesia), Brian (Indonesia), Tin (Myanmmar), Masitha (Sri Lanka) and Rahim (Malaysia)

These were the groups for our transportation. We moved all over the place in 3 vans. So the vans were called – Lovely, Friends, Forever.

Nice eh.

The course was such a fun one. It was on eco-tourism! Tourism! We went to different part of Thailand in those 15 days together. Bangkok, Pattaya, Koh Chang, Samaesarn Island, Chantaburi, Chonburi… Hmm.

Okaylah, that’s all for now. Have a great day!


The new division

Takdelah new sangat pun, I masuk sini since my first week in KPLB (was KKLW). I started here on 30th Oct 2017, almost 6 months now.  I don’t have much to say, I guess the expectation is understandable, I have the long list of tasks and  I understand there are also additional clerical work I have to monitor, holding one of the senior posts here.

The environment is manageable, although there are times that I couldn’t get to understand and have big whys on a few instructions, behaviour and manners but, anyway… I think it’s still manageable and I am hoping that by time, I would be able to mitigate things better here.

Anyway, today boss was such in a good mood, and had advised me in such a good way (compared to usual blast hehe) regarding my works.

Some of the staffs had been asking me a lot of things about my view on boss, since there’s a bit of heated statements from boss in the office group whatsapps, boss was mad at me on some miscommunication mishaps.  I was shocked too by the incident but anyway, I tried my best to reflect things, and looked at the things from my boss’s view – I could understand that there’s something about boss’s ego – her pride and her trust in us – and somehow I got to understand why she had behave in such a way so, there, I just apologized and wishing that I would act better if I were in her situation. Anyway, all is good now, and that incident taught me to take more attention in my work and I have to be more prepared.  Miscommunication is something that we can avoid, actually, kan?

I saw the Last Word, a movie with Shirley Mclaine and Amanda Seyfried in it. The most positive thing I could learn from the movie is, sometime the shouting, or harsh words came from people that trust us, believe in our potential and expect more from us, because sometimes we couldn’t even see our own potential.

Perhaps, next time when boss is mad at me (or at you) – take it that it’s a disappointment of seeing that we didn’t live up to their potential, that we didn’t even see our own potential.

Anyway, that’s just my thought for time being, maybe it will change. But here, our pre-raya shoot. Can’t believe it’s 10 more days (or less) to raya.

raya bpud