I don’t like it

I don’t know how to say it, but I think I don’t really like my new position. I am not sure why. Oh, wait, of course I know, I just can’t put it down here.

Basically, I find it hard to work with people who doesn’t share my value and our understanding towards the same jobs are different. It’s hard, I guess that is the hardest part of having to work with teammates with different values and ethics. Should I say ethics? It seems like such a heavy word.

I believe that I understand my work, who will be benefited from my work, and how I am supposed to work with others to ensure the objectives are met. Unfortunately they are easier said (written) than done. I forget to take into consideration of the challenges that I might be facing in doing the work.

  • People – the first factor – the real beneficiaries, the ones who make things work and succeed, sometimes I become a challenge for myself too. Oh, have I shared with you that I don’t even have an assistant except for a clerk in my unit? It’s a real challenge!
  • Time – really a few people who really manages their time well. Who are you kidding?
  • Value – I believe I know what are my primary tasks and what are the supporting ones – not, not everyone share this view with me.


On other note;

  • I always try to look at the kind things people have done, no matter how much they despised me;
  • My enrich is now back to blue due to the lack numbers of travelling this year.

Have a good April everyone.



Argh, I was planning to go buy a cute pair of sandals (no, didn’t get the cute one, just a practical one) when the news about the election was aired and distributed through the social media. I have whatsapps, twitter and fb as well as ig so the amount of negative words are actually quite overwhelming.

I said funny because

  • some already bought the air tickets on the date they predicted and now they blame government for having to bear additional fee for date changes etc;
  • some are mad it’s on Wednesday – I was like, what is the fuss? Might be the case that their employers won’t let some people go cast vote – it’d surely happen, Malaysians are everything;
  • and there are some people who came out with lots of theory about the competing parties;
  • etc

For me, I would of course plan a trip back home to vote, but as for now, I have already registered to attend a course that would start on 24th April to 9th May out of Malaysia – not sure it’d be approved but… if I could, I would ask to be dismissed one day earlier so that I could make a trip back home.

Five years ago, I was in Brunei one day before the election day – I was there for a meeting – and then I drove home alone from KUL-Krai. I could see the same thing being repeated.

Anyway – please go out to vote, especially those with such a vocal voice on social media. May the best leader wins! 🙂


p.s : Primavera is having buy 2 @RM129 and I got my raya shoes sorted~ 🙂


I was feeling like there’s a lot of crazy people around me. I had some people who understand me and just accept me as much as I accepted them but there’s also some people who I didn’t get.

Yesterday while I was driving out to get something (exactly, 3 things) just because I was sick of dealing with people, I think yesterday was a day when I felt like, this is it. Note that, this is it means I have been kind for so long. At least I think I was being reasonable.

During the drive, as I contemplated everything that happened and justified my own acts, I almost could hear my mum’s voice telling me “itulah… keras hati, takleh tunggu, tak sabar etc” and I could also (as always) prepare my justification of everything… You might not know that I used to tease my mum a lot and I thought she realized that she’s given birth to a smart girl, she had to deal with the girl, unfortunately haha (Yes, I miss my mum).

Anyway, I think it’s not a bad thing to not understand every people, and I think I don’t have to provide explanation for my action to everyone too. I understand that sometimes I just want to tell someone everything and at the same time, I might don’t wanna share anything. I realize that I might be complicated but I always ensure that I’m being reasonable.

But that was me, on myself.

I hope I don’t trouble people as much as people troubles me. HAH.



Lagu Cinta Untuk Starla, sweet.

Kutuliskan kenangan tentang caraku menemukan dirimu
Tentang apa yang membuatku mudah berikan hatiku padamu

Takkan habis sejuta lagu untuk menceritakan cantikmu
Kan teramat panjang puisi tuk menyuratkan cinta ini

Telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena tlah kuhabiskan sisa cintaku hanya untukmu

Aku pernah berpikir tentang hidupku tanpa ada dirimu
Dapatkan lebih indah dari yang kujalani sampai kini
Aku slalu bermimpi tentang indah hari tua bersamamu
Tetap cantik rambut panjangmu meskipun nanti tak hitam lagi

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku hanya untukmu

Dan tlah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena tlah kuhabiskan sisa cintaku hanya untukmu

Bila musim berganti
Sampai waktu terhenti
Walau dunia membenci
Ku kan tetap disini…

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku hanya untukmu

Read more: Virgoun – Surat Cinta Untuk Starla Lyrics | MetroLyrics

I hate to but I have to

I don’t really like to nag, but most of the time I can’t help myself. I try to nag only when it’s really necessary. I know people hate being nagged to (me too) but at some points nagging really move things.

What about you guys? Sometimes we are tired too, of asking the same people the same thing.

I know some of my friends are (might be) tired of me nagging around in the WA group; for making me wait, for underestimating themselves, but hey, thanks for being around!

One of my friends said to me “I can imagine you as a boss…” Lady boss maybe whatever but hmmm.

Sometimes we just behave accordingly. I think we should behave accordingly to the situation we are in, and being considerate is a must too. Entahlah, sometimes it’s not fair bila kita rasa kita je yang being considerate, tapi masalahnya, kita je rasa kita considerate, padahal the other party was like, menyampah dah dengan kita.

The possibilities are endless, just be yourself, your good self, and imagine how you wanna be treated, then, treat other people accordingly, ok?


Sick of people

People, you should believe in yourself and your capabilities. You have come so far so there must be something good in you that other people can see, and it’s so sad that you can’t see for yourself.

If you feel like you want something, and you know what your target is, even better you know what to do to reach them, and at the same time you also believe that there would be challenges on your way, but if you believe in yourself, you can do it. You should know how to work things out to get things done. No matter what, you shouldn’t give up trying.

Do not underestimate yourself, it’s a sad thing to do to yourself. You are not that young, dumb and broke, you have everything that some people just dream about. So, what is wrong with you when you tend to think low of yourself.

I used to be the young girl with no working experience when I first sat for the assessment for this job, yes, I was scared but I know, I must get this job, and I was being the best version of myself, and let the assessment panels saw me. Alhamdulillah, they saw the potential and here I am and I couldn’t be thankful enough.


Meeting friends

Case I

Planning like… a week before and at least five said yes. When the day arrives, turn out, if lucky we could see 4 of us.

Note : Just remember that everyone has their own commitment, just be respectful for each other’s time and commitment.

Case II

A : Let’s meet, I am around your area.
B : It’s last minute and I have work to do. Ah, never mind la, as you are already on your way, let’s meet for coffee.

And later from coffee moves to movie.

Note : Things are sometimes better unplanned.

Case III

A : It’s too last minute, next time let me know a week before.
B : Orait, note on that!

Fast forward… to the next time… conversation with the same person.

B : Are you free on Thursday next week? (Today is Thursday, this week)
A : Hmmm, I couldn’t confirm now, it’s too early!
B : WTH, you told me to arrange a week earlier before.

Note : At this time, we should know where do we stand in their list.

Case IV

A : Let’s meet after Maghrib.
B : What time?
A : Meet me at surau at 7.25pm
B : Ok.

Note : Better to give exact time.

Case V

A : I wanna eat there.
B : But I wanna eat here.
Me : In 2 hours, the food will just be in the dark dark…

Note : Tolerate each other.