Whyyyyy

I’m still on your Netflix
Girl, I know you love me
Even though your parents
They don’t fu***** trust me
They probably alright though
I know I’m an asshole
No reply to all your texts girl I do you mad cold

Like you’re just
Dying to drive but you can’t find the keys, now
Looking for God but you’re down on your knees, I’m
All that you want but not what you need girl why

Tell me why do you still love me
Why do you love me?
You know you shouldn’t love me
Yea you still love me

All your friends tell you they hate me
God I’m f***kin’ shady
Couple weeks ago they were inside my sheets naked
Club, so you can Snapchat
T***ies out to snap that
I know that you do that shit just hoping for a snapback

Like you’re just
Dying to drive but you can’t find the keys, now
Looking for God but you’re down on your knees, I’m
All that you want but not what you need girl why

Tell me why do you still love me
Why do you love me?
You know you shouldn’t love me
Yea you still love me, oh

Why do you need me when you know you don’t need me?
It’s tearing you apart
I leave you broken and shaken
And you still call me baby

Tell me why do you still love me
Why do you love me?
You know you shouldn’t love me
Yea you still love me

Something is not right

Ha, I don’t even know what or why or how, but a big part of me is yearning to go out and travel. I miss the beach (who doesn’t) and particularly I miss the feeling of traveling, most probably alone.

I think I need some time out. I will not justify my feeling for I know there are some people who’ve been through more difficult time than me.

I don’t even know why am I feeling this, I just feel tired.

 

Al Fatihah

Assalamualaikum,

Dimaklumkan adik I, Noor Ainun binti Kamarzaman, 34 telah meninggal dunia pada Isnin, 9 Julai 2018.  She was a cancer fighter. She was diagnosed with cancer, stage 3 in December 2016.

She was my first girl friend, though not quite close during our childhood but as we grew up, she found it easy to share with me most of her dreams, and ambitions and secrets.

Today is my birthday, and I would ask your kindness to recite Al Fatihah to her and my late mother, and to me too, as my birthday gift.

 

Thank you.

🙂

 

Adik oh adik

Adik bongsu I nampaknya tak boleh terima budaya di kolej dia tempat dia register Sabtu lepas and it’s now only 2 days but he’s been texting my father and my sister to share his unhappiness. I know that I’ve sort of pushed him to register himself in the college but then I was thinking of his own good.

Now we are all persuading him to stay for two more weeks and see how things go. I know that the first week could be like hell, with the orientation and having to wake up earliest in the morning. Ah, I am bit worried too.

Come to think of it, why is it so hard for these two youngest brothers of mine to stay at the first college they got? My 7th brother also ran away (sort of) from his college and asked my father to send him somewhere else and now with this number 8, I am foreseeing almost similar incident. Oh, please I loathe the private college.

Please pray for my brother’s happiness, anyone reading this? Hope he would find joy and happiness in this new place.

p.s : Why do we (some colleges) feel the need to put the new students in such a unhappy situation during the first week of being out of district, far from family for the first time (on some cases)?